Happy Thanksgiving!

I can't believe it is already thanksgiving, it seems like we just had christmas last year. Thanksgiving is like the turning point, it means that christmas is just around the corner and it is so exciting. Thanksgiving is not my favorite, I guess that is why I always pick to work it, deep in my heart I know I have a lot to be thankful for and I don't necessarily need to pig out to know that. I do admit it is nice to get together with your family and have a nice dinner. I am excited to start christmas shopping seriously. Although my husband thinks the kids don't need any new toys because our house is taken over by the ones we got. But what can I say I am a sucker.
Jaxon had a thanksgiving program at school today, they were suposed to sing songs that they learned, but Jaxon just stood up there with both hands in his mouth looking around. It was cute anyways. He is the youngest kid in school, and I don't think his attention span is as good as the other kids, they ususally don't let kids in school till they are 3 and a half, but since Jax was potty trained they let him in. They admit he is doing good, but I can tell he's not as mature as some of the other kids its funny how big of a difference a year can make.
So I finally uploaded pictures so if they are a little outdated sorry.

Dreaming of blue :)

Well I guess we are dreaming of blue now. I am happy about that, to look on the bright side we already have a ton of stuff, poor kid will wear hand me downs through 2 kids. Boys are great and I love my boys very much, I am just going to be a boys mom, thats ok, I just hope I have good daughter in laws. Our main focus is a healthy boy. We are just gong to have to hope and pray for that. The heart has been doing some funny things it has decelerations and at this point its a mystery of a cause so with me being 19 weeks there is not much they can do so we just have to watch and see what happens. If that is not annoying I don't know what is, these are the possibilities the cord is compressed and either it will work out its kinks and be fine or it won't and if it is before 24 weeks we will just let it do what is meant for it.... Or there is some sort of heart defect and again we will have to wait and see, they really aren't going to do much until the baby is viable. They suspected I may have lupus or RA, but my tests came back negative, I was relieved to find out that my tests were ok but it was bittersweet because it meant the baby may have some problems. The scary part is that we may have a baby here in as little as 5 weeks. I have been stressing out for the last 2 weeks and its so exhausting because I am like a worst case senerio person, I think I have drove my husband crazy. But I am so thankful for my mom and my sister, they have cried with me and dropped everything and came to support me and I love that, they are the best I could ask for and its not like I have to ask they are just there for me.
So we are going to get an ultrasound every month to check things out and hopefully get answers we need to prepare ourselves for whatever we need to.

These are our new family pictures, they would be so cute if I wasn't pulling a cheese ball smile, but it was the only one that everyone was smiling a somewhat.

Update!

We had a great Halloween, I am not at home or else I would post some pics. I had 2 of the cutest ninja's ever, they had a blast.
We went to get our ultrasound and this little baby had its legs crossed so we were unable to see what it was so the waiting will continue. I will probably get another one on Tues, I am seeing a specialist so we will see what we can find out. We are a bit worried cause there might be a few problems, but we are not saying anything till we know for sure. Say a prayer for us....